All children, except one, grow up. They soon know that they will grow up,
and the way Wendy knew was this. One day when she was two years old she was
playing in a garden, and she plucked another flower and ran with it to her
mother. I suppose she must have looked rather delightful, for Mrs. Darling put
her hand to her heart and cried, "Oh, why can't you remain like this for
ever!" This was all that passed between them on the subject, but
henceforth Wendy knew that she must grow up. You always know after you are two.
Two is the beginning of the end.
Of course they lived at 14 [their house number on their street], and until
Wendy came her mother was the chief one. She was a lovely lady, with a romantic
mind and such a sweet mocking mouth. Her romantic mind was like the tiny boxes,
one within the other, that come from the puzzling East, however many you
discover there is always one more; and her sweet mocking mouth had one kiss on
it that Wendy could never get, though there is was, perfectly conspicuous in
the right-hand corner. The way Mr. Darling won her was this: the many gentlemen
who had been boys when she was a girl discovered simultaneously that they loved
her, and they all ran to her house to propose to her except Mr. Darling, who
took a cab and nipped in first, and so he got her. He got all of her, except
the innermost box and the kiss. He never knew about the box, and in time he
gave up trying for the kiss. Wendy thought Napoleon could have got it, but I can
picture him trying, and then going off in a passion, slamming the door. Mr.
Darling used to boast to Wendy that her mother not only loved him but respected
him. He was one of those deep ones who know about stocks and shares. Of course
no one really knows, but he quite seemed to know, and he often said stocks were
up and shares were down in a way that would have made any woman respect him.
Mrs. Darling was married in white, and at first she kept the books
perfectly, almost gleefully, as if it were a game, not so much as a Brussels
sprout was missing; but by and by whole cauliflowers dropped out, and instead
of them there were pictures of babies without faces. She drew them when she
should have been totting up. They were Mrs. Darling's guesses. Wendy came first,
then John, then Michael.
For a week or two after Wendy came it was doubtful whether they would be
able to keep her, as she was another mouth to feed. Mr. Darling was frightfully
proud of her, but he was very honourable, and he sat on the edge of Mrs. Darling's
bed, holding her hand and calculating expenses, while she looked at him
imploringly. She wanted to risk it, come what might, but that was not his way;
his way was with a pencil and a piece of paper, and if she confused him with
suggestions he had to begin at the beginning again.
"Now don't interrupt," he would beg of her. "I have one
pound seventeen here, and two and six at the office; I can cut off my coffee at
the office, say ten shillings, making two nine and six, with your eighteen and
three makes three nine seven, with five naught naught in my cheque-book makes
eight nine seven -- who is that moving? -- eight nine seven, dot and carry
seven -- don't speak, my own -- and the pound you lent to that man who came to
the door -- quiet, child -- dot and carry child -- there, you've done it! --
did I say nine nine seven? yes, I said nine nine
seven; the question is, can we try it for a year on nine nine seven?"
"Of course we can, George," she cried. But she was prejudiced in
Wendy's favour, and he was really the grander character of the two.
"Remember mumps," he warned her almost threateningly, and off he
went again. "Mumps one pound, that is what I have put down, but I daresay
it will be more like thirty shillings -- don't speak -- measles one five, German
measles half a guinea, makes two fifteen six -- don't waggle your finger --
whooping-cough, say fifteen shillings" -- and so on it went, and it added
up differently each time; but at last Wendy just got through, with mumps
reduced to twelve six, and the two kinds of measles treated as one.
There was the same excitement over John, and Michael had even a narrower
squeak; but both werekept, and soon, you might have seen the three of them
going in a row to Miss Fulsom's Kindergarten school, accompanied by their
nurse.
Mrs. Darling loved to have everything just so, and Mr. Darling had a
passion for being exactly like his neighbours; so, of course, they had a nurse.
As they were poor, owing to the amount of milk the children drank, this nurse
was a prim
No nursery could possibly have been conducted more correctly, and Mr.
Darling knew it, yet he sometimes wondered uneasily whether the neighbors
talked.
He had his position in the city to consider.
Nana also troubled him in another way. He had sometimes a feeling that she
did not admire him. "I know she admires you tremendously, George,"
Mrs. Darling would assure him, and then she would sign to the children to be specially nice to father. Lovely dances followed, in which
the only other servant, Liza, was sometimes allowed to join. Such a midget she
looked in her long skirt and maid's cap, though she had sworn, when engaged,
that she would never see ten again. The gaiety of those romps! And gayest of
all was Mrs. Darling, who would pirouette so wildly that all you could see of
her was the kiss, and then if you had dashed at her you might have got it.
There never was a simpler happier family until the coming of Peter Pan.
Mrs. Darling first heard of Peter
when she was tidying up her children's minds. It is the nightly custom of every
good mother after her children are asleep to rummage in their minds and put
things straight for next morning, repacking into their proper places the many
articles that have wandered during the day. If you could keep awake (but of
course you can't) you would see your own mother doing this, and you would find
it very interesting to watch her. It is quite like tidying up drawers. You
would see her on her knees, I expect, lingering humorously over some of your
contents, wondering where on earth you had picked this thing up, making
discoveries sweet and not so sweet, pressing this to her cheek as if it were as
nice as a kitten, and hurriedly stowing that out of sight. When you wake in the
morning, the naughtiness and evil passions with which you went to bed have been
folded up small and placed at the bottom of your mind and on the top,
beautifully aired, are spread out your prettier thoughts, ready for you to put
on.
I don't know whether you have ever seen a map of a person's mind. Doctors
sometimes draw maps of other parts of you, and your own map can become
intensely interesting, but catch them trying to draw a map of a child's mind,
which is not only confused, but keeps going round all the time. There are
zigzag lines on it, just like your temperature on a card, and these are probably
roads in the island, for the Neverland is always more or less an island, with
astonishing splashes of colour here and there, and coral reefs and
rakish-looking craft in the offing, and savages and lonely lairs, and gnomes
who are mostly tailors, and caves through which a river runs, and princes with
six elder brothers, and a hut fast going to decay, and one very small old lady
with a hooked nose. It would be an easy map if that were all, but there is also
first day at school, religion, fathers, the round pond, needle-work, murders,
hangings, verbs that take the dative, chocolate pudding day, getting into
braces, say ninety-nine, three-pence for pulling out your tooth yourself, and
so on, and either these are part of the island or they are another map showing
through, and it is all rather confusing, especially as nothing will stand
still.
Of course the Neverlands vary a good deal. John's, for instance, had a
lagoon with flamingoes flying over it at which John was shooting, while
Michael, who was very small, had a flamingo with lagoons flying over it. John
lived in a boat turned upside down on the sands, Michael in a wigwam, Wendy in
a house of leaves deftly sewn together. John had no friends, Michael had
friends at night, Wendy had a pet wolf forsaken by its parents, but on the
whole the Neverlands have a family resemblance, and if they stood still in a
row you could say of them that they have each other's nose, and so forth. On
these magic shores children at play are for ever beaching their coracles [simple
boat]. We too have been there; we can still hear the sound of the surf, though
we shall land no more.
Of all delectable islands the Neverland is the snuggest and most compact,
not large and sprawly, you know, with tedious distances between one adventure and
another, but nicely crammed. When you play at it by day with the chairs and
table-cloth, it is not in the least alarming, but in the two minutes before you
go to sleep it becomes very real. That is why there are night-lights.
Occasionally in her travels through her children's minds Mrs. Darling found
things she could not understand, and of these quite the most perplexing was the
word Peter. She knew of no Peter, and yet he was here and there in John and
Michael's minds, while Wendy's began to be scrawled all over with him. The name
stood out in bolder letters than any of the other words, and as Mrs. Darling
gazed she felt that it had an oddly cocky appearance. "Yes, he is rather
cocky," Wendy admitted with regret. Her mother had been questioning her.
"But who is he, my pet?"
"He is Peter Pan, you know, mother."
At first Mrs. Darling did not know, but after thinking back into her
childhood she just remembered a Peter Pan who was said to live with the
fairies. There were odd stories about him, as that when children died he went
part of the way with them, so that they should not be frightened. She had
believed in him at the time, but now that she was married and full of sense she
quite doubted whether there was any such person.
"Besides," she said to Wendy, "he would be grown up by this
time."
"Oh no, he isn't grown up," Wendy assured her confidently,
"and he is just my size." She meant that he was her size in both mind
and body; she didn't know how she knew, she just knew it.
Mrs. Darling consulted Mr. Darling, but he smiled pooh-pooh. "Mark my
words," he said, "it is some nonsense Nana has been putting into
their heads; just the sort of idea a dog would have. Leave it alone, and it
will blow over."
But it would not blow over and soon the troublesome boy gave Mrs. Darling
quite a shock.
Children have the strangest adventures without being troubled by them. For
instance, they may remember to mention, a week after the event happened, that
when they were in the wood they had met their dead father and had a game with
him. It was in this casual way that Wendy one morning made a disquieting
revelation. Some leaves of a tree had been found on the nursery floor, which
certainly were not there when the children went to bed, and Mrs. Darling was
puzzling over them when Wendy said with a tolerant smile: "I do believe it
is that Peter again!"
"Whatever do you mean, Wendy?" "It is so naughty of him not
to wipe his feet," Wendy said, sighing. She was a tidy child. She
explained in quite a matter-of-fact way that she thought Peter sometimes came
to the nursery in the night and sat on the foot of her bed and played on his
pipes to her. Unfortunately she never woke, so she didn't know how she knew,
she just knew.
"What nonsense you talk,
precious. No one can get into the house without knocking."
"I think he comes in by the window," she said.
"My love, it is three floors up."
"Were not the leaves at the foot of the window, mother?"
It was quite true; the leaves had been found very near the window.
Mrs. Darling did not know what to think, for it all seemed so natural to
Wendy that you could not dismiss it by saying she had been dreaming.
"My child," the mother cried, "why did you not tell me of
this before?"
"I forgot," said Wendy lightly. She was in a hurry to get her
breakfast. Oh, surely she must have been dreaming.
But, on the other hand, there were the leaves. Mrs. Darling examined them
very carefully; they were skeleton leaves, but she was sure they did not come
from any tree that grew in
Certainly Wendy had been dreaming. But Wendy had not been dreaming, as the
very next night showed, the night on which the extraordinary adventures of
these children may be said to have begun. On the night we speak of all the
children were once more in bed. It happened to be Nana's evening off, and Mrs.
Darling had bathed them and sung to them till one by one they had let go her
hand and slid away into the land of sleep. All were looking so safe and cosy
that she smiled at her fears now and sat down tranquilly by the fire to sew.
It was something for Michael, who on his birthday was getting into shirts.
The fire was warm, however, and the nursery dimly lit by three night-lights,
and presently the sewing lay on Mrs. Darling's lap. Then her head nodded, oh,
so gracefully. She was asleep. Look at the four of them, Wendy and Michael over
there, John here, and Mrs. Darling by the fire. There should have been a fourth
night-light. While she slept she had a dream. She dreamt that the Neverland had
come too near and that a strange boy had broken through from it. He did not
alarm her, for she thought she had seen him before in the faces of many women
who have no children. Perhaps he is to be found in the faces of some mothers
also. But in her dream he had rent the film that obscures the Neverland, and
she saw Wendy and John and Michael peeping through the gap.
The dream by itself would have been a trifle, but while she was dreaming
the window of the nursery blew open, and a boy did drop on the floor. He was
accompanied by a strange light, no bigger than your fist, which darted about
the room like a living thing and I think it must have been this
light that wakened Mrs. Darling.
She started up with a cry, and saw the boy, and somehow she knew at once
that he was Peter Pan. If you or I or Wendy had been there we should have seen
that he was very like Mrs. Darling's kiss. He was a lovely boy, clad in
skeleton leaves and the juices that ooze out of trees but the most entrancing
thing about him was that he had all his first teeth. When he saw she was a
grown-up, he gnashed the little pearls at her.